Today seems like a good day to clean the house and walk the dog! Yes i am off today and it is finally not an ice bound day.I almost don't know what to do with myself.Sure there are always a million things i would like to get done, but what is important right now? I am relaxing now,doing what i enjoy most....writing. The laundry is done...the bathroom is clean...the beds are made...i have like two cups to wash. I am on the third cup of coffee....and loving every sip. 9:47 am and
bored already. I rented the movie WAR last night and have no desire to lay there and watch it.
I think i need a life..hahahaha. I listen to my co-workers talking about all the things they plan to do on their day off. The idea of shopping sickens me. Spending the day with all of my non working friends...well that is a real long shot because all of my friends work! Wow, bieng content must be very rare. Content i am though....no need to spend money i don't have on crap i don't need. No desire to spend time with people less content because i need an ego boost. Don't drink so no desire to" tie one on" on my day off.I guess im really not bored ....just content! That feels pretty good! Ahhh...the agenda...coffee, yoga, walk the dog, relax in a hot bath, and whatever i desire from then on! Great plan!
Thursday, January 31, 2008
Monday, January 28, 2008
Really , it is all babble!
Well that's it i am in love and could not be happier.........Yes we would all love to say that!!!!
A friend asked me a question about her relationship.My answer to her dismay was multi para graphical and SO SO SO very honest. I think that i really upset her, i saw tears in her eyes
and she has not spoken to me since. SO the question of the day is WHY ASK THE QUESTION
IF YOU DON'T WANT TO HEAR THE ANSWER?
My thoughts on the subject is that we already know the answers....at least to the hard questions.
I think we ask so we don't have to face the answer...it is easier to get the wrong answer and then blame the one who was willing to tell you what you wanted to hear when things go wrong. Life and love are not supposed to be easy....if they were we would take it all for granted. Struggle helps us appreciate those things that really mean the most.
This philosophy only works though if we are willing to learn from our mistakes and misfortunes.
If you marry for looks and money....after the ugly divorce....try loving for the human factor. If you are an addict.....well... duh...avoid what you are addicted to. If it bothers you... eliminate it.
If you are not happy...then it is time to move on.
Now was that so hard?
A friend asked me a question about her relationship.My answer to her dismay was multi para graphical and SO SO SO very honest. I think that i really upset her, i saw tears in her eyes
and she has not spoken to me since. SO the question of the day is WHY ASK THE QUESTION
IF YOU DON'T WANT TO HEAR THE ANSWER?
My thoughts on the subject is that we already know the answers....at least to the hard questions.
I think we ask so we don't have to face the answer...it is easier to get the wrong answer and then blame the one who was willing to tell you what you wanted to hear when things go wrong. Life and love are not supposed to be easy....if they were we would take it all for granted. Struggle helps us appreciate those things that really mean the most.
This philosophy only works though if we are willing to learn from our mistakes and misfortunes.
If you marry for looks and money....after the ugly divorce....try loving for the human factor. If you are an addict.....well... duh...avoid what you are addicted to. If it bothers you... eliminate it.
If you are not happy...then it is time to move on.
Now was that so hard?
Tuesday, January 22, 2008
OK so you do have an opinion....GREAT! What are you going to do about it?......Yeah yeah first you have to get off your ass and be willing to play devils advocate! Not so easy huh?!. So here is a little guide to follow;
Step 1 Answer this question...Who am I? If you answered move to step 2.
Step 2 Now that you know who you are, ask What matters to me? If you answered this one you are doing better than most! move to step 3.
Step 3 Count your blessings and decide for yourself the steps from here...you are on your way back to humanity...find your path ,your ,and fight until you are happy with your humanity and choices. After all we are the only species capably of preventing out own extinction.Embrace that power.
Step 1 Answer this question...Who am I? If you answered move to step 2.
Step 2 Now that you know who you are, ask What matters to me? If you answered this one you are doing better than most! move to step 3.
Step 3 Count your blessings and decide for yourself the steps from here...you are on your way back to humanity...find your path ,your ,and fight until you are happy with your humanity and choices. After all we are the only species capably of preventing out own extinction.Embrace that power.
MY FELLOW AMERICANS
Last night i watched a little of the CNN/Black Caucus Debate.I learned allot,well allot of nothing. Just sitting there listening to three people go back and forth about things that they will forget about if/when one of them is elected by the People of this great country. I pondered the idiosyncrasies of our country and the choices made by our leaders.....Choices that as a people we are judged by. I have come to realize that we the people have the worst character judgement skills of any modern nation in the country. Since when does a country so wealthy and privileged just allow itself to be degraded by the actions of the few? Since now i guess! We have allowed our president to darken the image of our amazing country. Bullies in the eyes of the world....That is us. We are at the proverbial cross roads and we are standing back saying duh i dunno! Why,have we lost the voice that once demanded respect from all and realized that we also had to earn that respect?No i don't thank we have lost it...just misplaced it. It is easy to lose sight of the real issues and struggles of humanity. It is much easier to complain about our economy and our crime rate..hell even the price of gas when families cant even afford the near 4.00 per gallon to buy milk for our children. Let us as a people remember the pride and freedom that is America and the price we must pay to keep those freedoms. Until we find that voice of hope again we have surrendered our power of choice to the powers that be....The ones we chose to lead us! GET YOUR ASS OFF THE COUCH AND ACT LIKE AN AMERICAN......USE THAT POWER OF CHOICE AND MAKE YOURSELF HEARD!!!!!!!
Thursday, January 17, 2008
In the eyes
In the eye of the beholder is where I'm told true beauty lies. I see my own desires there.The hopes and dreams of many,the emotions of a world in chaos.The confusion of a mass of whirling energy absent of purpose.A flicker of love and a tear of loss.The staunch stillness of a leader,the light of childhood amazement.A deep understanding of matters of the heart.The vest expanse of the mind all mirrored there.The beauty of life.That is what i found there.
Friday, January 11, 2008
Monarch
With a flutter of his silken wings he takes flight into the mystical evening sky.He sails through the pleasantly cool air,absorbing in awe the sights and smells of the land below.To his amazement the world below was wonderfully full of life.So many strange but beautiful sights.
So many colors and textures.It is now an overwhelmed feeling that comes over him.He decides to fly lower to more closely inspect the glistening water below.While floating and fluttering close to the cool water he sees the most majestic creature he has ever seen.The creature appeared to be following his every move.He tried to trick the creature in the water and landed on a blade of grass.It was then he realized the creature he was watching was himself....The King....The Monarch.
So many colors and textures.It is now an overwhelmed feeling that comes over him.He decides to fly lower to more closely inspect the glistening water below.While floating and fluttering close to the cool water he sees the most majestic creature he has ever seen.The creature appeared to be following his every move.He tried to trick the creature in the water and landed on a blade of grass.It was then he realized the creature he was watching was himself....The King....The Monarch.
Wednesday, January 9, 2008
Welcome
Welcome to my life in words.
Today i decided to start a blog.I really love to write,and share my feelings.
When i woke up late this morning i rushed around in a panic,afraid to disapoint those who count on me at work.Well after i got to work on time i realized that i forgot about the people who matter most to me,my loving man and four amazing children.Let us not forget the dog who really makes child number five.I thought about not giving the early morning kiss and hug.I then began to wonder if anyone really missed me at all.I know i missed them all even before i left the house.
After putting in my time at work i went home to an empty house...all accept for the dog who cried and jumped all over me.Big wet doggy kisses....so i guess i was missed after all!
Today i decided to start a blog.I really love to write,and share my feelings.
When i woke up late this morning i rushed around in a panic,afraid to disapoint those who count on me at work.Well after i got to work on time i realized that i forgot about the people who matter most to me,my loving man and four amazing children.Let us not forget the dog who really makes child number five.I thought about not giving the early morning kiss and hug.I then began to wonder if anyone really missed me at all.I know i missed them all even before i left the house.
After putting in my time at work i went home to an empty house...all accept for the dog who cried and jumped all over me.Big wet doggy kisses....so i guess i was missed after all!