Feeling Blue

I am feeling blue today even though it is beautiful outside. Yes i know get out and enjoy it!!! Yeah yeah...I'll get right on it.
Some things are bothering me that i really don't think need to be talked about. Why can't people let it at that? I am just in a quiet mood and got lots on my mind. I don't think a day without a smile will kill me!
I know that people are not used to seeing me like this and to those of you who read this.....I'M SORRY! I do how ever appreciate their concern. Some of them may need to consider that their actions are part of my problem. I really don't like it when someone tries to bullshit me ...duh we all have our little tells! I spent far to long living with little lies and omissions. I would rather be alone forever than be deceived for even a moment! Remember folks.. i have brain damage I'm not stupid! How can you look at yourself in the mirror and not want to smash it. My man says he has hidden things from me in the past because of how i get/am......What is wrong with demanding respect when i have earned it!?.. Yes lies really piss me off and omissions are still lies! If i treated people in such a way i don't think i could live with my self. Yes those little things really do hurt me. I am a single mother and i work too hard for too little money,No that does not make me special But it damn sure means i have earned some respect. I have never sucked off the system....or stolen to get ahead....I don't lie or play with other peoples emotions. I think it is my turn to relax a bit and enjoy the little time that i have!